Rāmāyana | Ayodhyā K| Chapter 42

42. Daśaratha Wails Further

[After Rāma disappeared from the horizon, Daśaratha fell down. When Kaikeyi tried to lift him up, he shouted her. He told his assistants to take him to Kauśalya's palace. He spent a sleepless night.]

As long as the dust raised by the chariot of Rāma who had set out to the forest was visible, that son of Ikshvāku dynasty did not withdraw his eyes. 42.1

As long as the king was able to see his son, who was a great follower of truth, the dust appeared to be growing, over his chance of seeing his son. 42.2

When the king was not able to even see the dust then with the increasing grief, and great sorrow the king fell down. 42.3

That lady Kauśalya reached to lift him by holding his right hand and the lover of Bhārata reached for his left side. 42.4

Endowed with foresight, humility and virtue, that king, with great pain saw Kaikeyi and said to her. 42.5

"Oh evil one, Oh Kaikeyi, do not touch my body, I do not want to see you, as you are neither my wife or relation." 42.6

"Those who depend on you for their lives, they are not mine as you are interested only for my wealth and you have forsaken Dharma and so I am giving you up." 42.7

"I, who has taken you by taking your hand and going round the fire, am renouncing you in this and the other world." 42.8

"If Bhārata takes over this imperishable kingdom and enjoys its benefits, the sacred water he gives to me, who is his father, after my death, will not reach me." 42.9

Then that extremely sorrowing Kauśalya raising up the king who was coated with dust, took him back to the palace. 42.10

That soul of Dharma who was greatly sorrowing due to having seen his son as an ascetic felt as if, he has intentionally killed a Brahmin or placed his hand in burning fire. 42.11

Turning to see again and again the trail of the chariot, that sorrowing king's form appeared as if it was the moon caught by Rāhu. 42.12

That sad one thinking of his beloved son the king wailed and understanding that he has reached the outside of the city, he told. 42.13

"The splendid vehicle has carried away my soul like son and I am able to see only impressions of the hooves but not that great son." 42.14

"My great son was till now sleeping on pleasure giving cushions, after being applied with sandal paste, being fanned by gracious women but from today he would sleep somewhere searching for a root of a tree and sleeping with a piece of rock as his pillow." 42.15-42.16

"That unfortunate one would get up from the earth being coated with dust and breathing heavily, like the he elephant arising from the prasruvana mountain for the she elephant." 42.17

"The people who wander in the forest from today would be seeing the long armed Rāma walking there like one who will protect them." 42.18

"From today that daughter of Janaka who is used to a pleasure filled life, would be walking in the forest troubled by piercing thorns." 42.19

"She who is not accustomed to the forest would suffer great fear, hearing the roaring of wild animals which is fearful and would cause horripilation." 42.20

"Oh Kaikeyi, let your desires be fulfilled and you live in this country as widow, for I am not interested in living without that tiger among men." 42.21

The king crying like this was surrounded by lot of people, and they entered the city like, one entering the house after a funeral bath. 42.22

Seeing the entire city of Ayodhyā, with deserted palaces in high ways, with closed markets and temples, with sick and very weak people who were exhausted with grief, with very empty great roads, Daśaratha entered the city with a heavy heart like the sun entering behind a dark cloud. 42.23-42.24

His great heart was perturbed like the lake from which Suparṇa snatched away the serpents, due to the absence of Sītā, Rāma and Lakṣmaṇa. 42.25

That king cried and told his attendant, with a choked throat in a feeble and sad tone. 42.26

"You please take me to the house Of Rāma's mother Kauśalya's house, because in no other place my mind will be at peace." 42.27

When the king told like this, that door keeper, took him the home off Kauśalya and there with humility, made him to lie down. 42.28

After having entered the house of Kauśalya, even though he occupied the couch, he tossed about. 42.29

To the king, that house where he could not see both his sons as well as his daughter in law, looked like, the sky without a moon. 42.30

That valorous king seeing this lifted his hands up and in a loud tone shouted "Oh Rāma, you have forsaken me." 42.31

"Those great people are blessed who will live till Rāma returns back and are able to hug him at that time. What a pity?" 42.32

That night appeared like the night of death to Daśaratha and in the mid night, he spoke to Kauśalya. 42.33

"Oh Kauśalya, my sight which followed behind Rāma has not returned back till now. I am not able to see clearly. Please touch me with your hand." 42.34

Kauśalya who was sitting by his side, seeing that the king was thinking continuously of only Rāma and no one else, was greatly distressed and breathing heavily, she started crying loudly. 42.35

This is the end of Forty Second Sarga of Ayodhyā Kanda which occurs in Holy Rāmāyaṇa composed by Vālmīki as the First Epic.